Tears (Feat. Mick Jenkins)

You left me tired and lonely
And I can't believe I'm still waiting around
I don't wanna cry but you know me so well
I just wanna hold back, but tears, they keep coming (look)

I just be like, "Fuck it, then"
Cryin' bullets, need to clip this F&N
I'm feelin' stuck again when I thinkin' 'bout where the rush been
When I witness Jehovah, he told us ain't no love again
Yeah, it sounded cold, but at least we knew what we up against
'Cause Trini's in the grave now, Josh in the grave now
Big Carl passed, I hold his lady and his baby down
Crazy how poppa was a rollin' stone, I hated how
Relationship's a little complicated now, amazing how
As a kid, I told her put the weight on my shoulders
And understand it was the weight of Jehovah
Paranoid, I'm in a spiral
'Cause I don't know if I'm this kid's idol or rival
But if it's for my survival, we goin' viral
It's a bummer 'cause momma ain't gettin' no fuckin' younger
So I'm startin' to cherish each and every summer, boy, I love her
Got a son now, he one now, well, really almost two
Damn, how fast time flies when it ain't all about you
Ain't it true if your message is you don't F with the crew
Then it's cool, learn my lesson 'cause life is better than school
Not a Kappa, but if beta niggas start up in this screw
Then they'll catch four shells like they just stepped in the ooze
I stepped in the booth, just know that every second's the truth
Don't get it? It's cool, just know that my blood and my sweat's the proof
The jealousy's new, cool when niggas was stressin' with you
Then weapons is drew 'cause think they blessings was left with you

We don't be on much
I be off this ice water hash, black Chevelle with the neon guts
Black Chanel, she wanna cop it herself, this shit beyond lust
Stainless steel, boy, we beyond rust
I'm thinkin' cash when I'm talkin' the wealth
The glass always half-full or it can't be my cup
The grass always look greener, nigga, be my guest
Lowkey with it, we Loch Ness
A stretch 'fore he be on EBlock less
We did the sauna for a detox
Then I did the scrub with the Himalayan sea salts
Felt like a hater, buy Raid
A nigga smell like a winner and crushed linen
Nigga feel like a player
Had Tommy Johns, never felt like a pitcher
I just been throwin' tomatoes
Waffle ironed out, I leggo my Eggo
They got me starin' at a circle of squares
Niggas tryna tell me I ain't in shape
I try angles, prolly never view theirs
Not that obtuse, we sit at ninety degrees, man
Every line is perpendicular here
Shorty got vehicular fears
A nigga drivin', sick in his sixth sense when I'm in the fifth gear
A pick six if a Mary get hailed
I'm goin' deep, chips on shoulders rarely get stale
I'm gon' eat, niggas oppose us to no avail
That's on me
That's on me

I done held back so many tears, feel like so many years
And it feels like today they gon' fall
I don't think that nobody here really knows how I feel
So today I'll be tellin' it all
Oh no, I can't erase the things that I've seen
I just pray that karma has mercy on me
I done held back so many tears, feel like so many years
And it feels like today they gon' fall