Clouds

I'm alive
But I can't move on with my life
Is this reality
Or are you even here
Or is it all inside my mind
I still can't find a flow
Although they call me grown
Been breathing for some time
And I still don't know
Time to throw it in
Time to give it up
I'm just not good enough

Here I am screaming at the clouds
With no God to kill my doubt
Despite how much I try
I can't find my way out
Here I am going down in flames
With nobody else to blame
Because despite how well I hide
I can't outrun the shame

Let me know
That you will let me go
Because I can't keep this going
Feeling like I'm owing 
Paying debts to devils
Here's an all new low
Everybody telling me to
Do what I want for me
But the second I turn away
You carve me out of greed
I'm alone inside of my head
Judging everything I see
I think it's time to give up
I think it's time to leave

Here I am screaming at the clouds
With no God to kill my doubt
Despite how much I try
I can't find my way out
Here I am going down in flames
With nobody else to blame
Because despite how well I hide
I can't outrun the shame