I Can And I Will

He drove me to the water
And I didn't even swim
He wanted me to have some fun
And I'm sorry, I meant to, I did

And it's hard to believe it still
The beautiful thing that it is
I wanted to be everything and I will
'Cause I want it still

And it's alright
And nothing calms down
As hard as I try
With my feet on the ground
I buried my teeth and everything good
Well, it didn't save me like I thought it would

I can't write anymore
I have a shadow over my door
And it's not kind anymore
It doesn't love me like before
And I don't cry anymore
Except when I do, which is most nights
And I'll try not to lie anymore
Or call it a symptom of fight or flight

Wish I didn't take the money when I did
Wish I didn't hate the city in mid July
Think I must've been somebody at some time
But you promise you can see me and you don't lie
But this is not mine anymore
Its giving you time like it always will
I don't wanna die anymore
There are hands to be held and drinks to be spilled

And I can and I will
You stand in the kitchen, making me still
'Cause I can and I will

I can and I will
I can and I will (it's alright if nothing calms down)
I can and I will (as long as I try with my feet on the ground)
I can and I will (I buried my teeth and did everything good)
I can and I will (but it didn't save me like I thought it would)
I can and I will 
I can and I will