The Deep Blue Okay

And another thing left that I need to say
I took a knife in case it was a home game
It was wrong and right, did you expect I might be
On the way to enlighten yet another boy?
I had a clean girl brow, it was a little forced
To be what I want, while pleasing everyone

And you can sing, and you can thrive
And you could never say, I didn't try
But it was for who I was and not who I'd become
So what's left? I hear you cry
It's just another new mountain to climb
But I know that at the top is where the next hill starts?

And there is nowhere left for your head to turn
Yeah, there's nowhere left for your head to turn
History repeating, but without the learning
And yet they spend their energy
Coming for anybody who doesn't get it right
Who really gets it right

And I'm a ghost, it's a machine
And now they're following where I've been
What are you looking for? I'm just like you, but boring
And in the end, I'm coming clean
I've spent my whole life lying about the things I want
About the things I should have done

I'm inferior, you're the absolute
This has got everything and nothing to do with you
I've a house to buy, I've still got this fucked mind
And as another year turns around the bend
As I nudge out yet another friend, it's still hard out here
But, fuck, I'll just keep going

And I'm alone, at least for now
'Cause I can never dumb myself down
I just know way too much, to ever fall in love
But the idea's good, I see where you're all coming from

So I'll roll on unmerrily
On the way to make another wedding about me
I've got boundaries plenty, but they're just so tiring
So I pick and choose what is fine to lose
I don't care about much, but I care about you
You're the only one who I'm still writing songs for

And I'm on edge, I make it work
I know that digging in the dirt
Is how someone like me gets there eventually
And, yeah, there's shame that I'm not okay
But the Deep Blue's there inside of me
And I have my doubts, but know I'll always work it out

You'll always work it out

And another thing left that I need to say
You know what? I might try today
I might fucking try today
Try today, try today

Another thing left that I need to say
You know what? I might try today
I might fucking try today
Try today, try today

It's all mine to lose
She says, "Babe, you got this"
But what does that mean?
I guess I've got something
It's all mine to lose
She says, "Babe, you got this"
What does that mean?
I guess I've got something