Afraid

I hear you calling, so alluring, tell me it's okay
Cause I'm so despondent, always falling, I will never change
So I'll drift away now, betray the sweet sound, the promise of better days

And I've tried everything, I know I can't kill it. This thing inside terrorizing me till I feed it

And I'm afraid to feel again. I'm not okay, it never ends. Mind is racing all the time
I'm so damn sick of living this lie

It's three in the morning, waking up, don't remember what happened
Reach to my side, grab the bottle as the panic creeps in
The sweet relief takes ahold of me, oh I hate it
Would rather die than live another day feeling like this
All my hopes, my dreams are gone, thrown away and it's all my fault
It's all my fault. It's all my fault

And I'm afraid to feel again. I'm not okay, it never ends. Mind is racing all the time
I'm so damn sick of
Living this lie
Living this lie

All my hopes, my dreams are gone, thrown away and it's all my fault