What I Wanted

I can never tell when something's going wrong
They told me that my problems are not everyone's
But anything you need, I'll try and get it done
Though I feel like they got me in a hit-and-run

I love that I'm so frustrated
I hate that I cannot say it
I love that I'm always breaking
I hate this bed, but I'm the one who made it

I chase the same thing
Can't trust myself, don't know what I want
I'm in the same place (the same place)
And it's not what I wanted
Too patient these days
Or maybe I'm just not using my time right
Back to my same ways (my same ways)
And it's not what I wanted at all

I can never tell when something's going right
How I feel is something and I just throw aside
Am I looking for something to feel more alive
Or am I scared, do I just want a place to hide?

I love that I'm so complacent
I hate that I'm always faded
I love that I'm on your playlist
I hate this bed, but I'm the one who made it

I chase the same thing
Can't trust myself, don't know what I want
I'm in the same place (the same place)
And it's not what I wanted
Too patient these days
Or maybe I'm just not using my time right
Back to my same ways (my same ways)
And it's not what I wanted at all

This is not how I wanna feel time pass
But I know that it always ends up like that
This is not how I wanna feel time pass
Every day's another moment that I'm sidetracked
This is not how I wanna feel time pass
But I know that it always ends up like that
This is not how I wanna feel time pass
Every day's another moment that I'm sidetracked

I chase the same thing
Can't trust myself, don't know what I want
I'm in the same place (the same place)
And it's not what I wanted
Too patient these days
Or maybe I'm just not using my time right
Back to my same ways (my same ways)
And it's not what I wanted at all

That sounds sick, honestly
Are you fuckin' with it?