Missing

Yeah
Feels like I'm holding my breath
Shouts to my ex teaching me how to reflect
Throwing her hands like she mad at the ref
We're not close when I text
I been at coping at best if I'm honest
You're not why I moved to the city, I'm sorry
It's somebody stopping me focusing properly
I wasn't ready for anything you could have told me
I hope that we could have been real
Maybe if I keep my troubles around me
You'll never see how much they're holding me still
I broke down on the pavement, I prayed you could have saved me
I know now why it's raining

You keep me still, I don't owe you that
(I don't owe you that, I don't owe you that)
You keep me still, I don't owe you that
You keep me still, I don't owe you that
(I don't owe you that, I don't owe you that)
You keep me still, I don't owe you that

You told me you were listening (You keep me still)
You told me you were listening (I don't owe you that)
Try keep holding back, I don't get me back
I'm for real, maybe we'll be fine (You told me you were listening)
I waste all my time, wake up next to me
I can barely breathe, I can't stand myself
Fall right back asleep, I don't owe you that
You heard everything, try keep holding back
Get me back to me
You told me you were listening (You keep me still)
I don't owe you that
Try keep holding back, I don't get me back
Maybe we'll be fine, I waste all my time, wake up next to me
I can barely breathe
I can't stand myself (You told me you were listening)
Fall right back asleep, I don't owe you that
You're still everything, try keep holding back
Get me back to me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me

I barely made it back to the edge of the town that I was staying in
And I just fell to the ground
And actually I was, I was really close to
Where my friend was working at the time
And I just fell to the ground in pieces
And I just couldn't for the life of me understand
What I was supposed to do with the way I was feeling
I couldn't comprehend whether I was supposed to
Feel absolutely everything or nothing at all
And I, I truly believed up until that point that the
The very little I understood about this life
Was that in this emotional spectrum that we could feel
I wanted to feel as low as I could possibly ever feel
In order to appreciate, as happy as I could possibly ever be
I'd spend all my time focusing on both ends of the spectrum
And I just didn't know what to do when I found nothing