Turning Blind

Let the smoke drag me in
Another vice that I tend to abuse
To stop me holding onto
Every possible chance
To recluse and be alone
Because it makes me feel so whole
And I don't wanna feel the way I do when I let go

Dealing with the pain that you put me through
Everything I've lost after being dragged through
This familiar stricken fate that I did not choose
I am so afraid of what, I might lose

Drift away
Let my body linger
While my minds in the haze
That clouds me from reality

Falling off a life already empty
Tell me what I've lost now
I'll take all the hope and trust that you've leant me
But I promise I'd still let you down

Dealing with the pain that you put me through
Everything I've lost after being dragged through
This familiar stricken fate that I did not choose
I am so afraid of what, I might lose

So what do I have left to lose?
If I'm the source of my abuse
What will happen if I face myself?
The way I'm supposed to
Will I excel towards my end?
Maybe I'll feel better then
So I'll caress these words in my head
Maybe I'm better off dead?

These tired eyes
Turning blind
To the blame
I never gave myself
So I just fold the hand that I've dealt

Dealing with the pain that you put me through
Everything I've lost
The suffering I've done
Because I'm you

Dealing with the pain that you put me through
Everything I've lost after being dragged through
This familiar stricken fate that I did not choose
I am so afraid of what, I might lose