Dear Mom

I don't think that I can lie
I think I'm running out of time
I think that I'm finally losing my mind
Cause I can't stop sitting here doing these lines
My momma said, "Boy, you must be out your mind, yeah
I see you in here on your grind but you only get older
And time don't go backwards, so a job's what you should go find, yeah"
But mom, my anxiety's finally getting better
And she said, "That's fine, but I can't have you here
Just taking up space like your dad did back when you was nine"
Yeah, but mom, please, just give me some time
I swear to god we gon' be fine
I swear to god one day I'll buy you a car
And myself the best house I can find
I swear to god I'll prove 'em wrong
I know you believe in me so I'll prove you right
Just don't ever forget that I'll never give up
Even though this ain't what you like, yeah

But there's nothing else for me out there
I'll make it or I'm going down there
The clouds that hung over my head
It done ran out of rain and now we're put around there
I swear to god I cannot stop and I'll never be finished
Until this whole goddamn city diminished
Until I stand up and say that I made it
And tell my mom I have a reason for living
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

And mom, see, I know that there's tons on your mind, yeah
You seem to forget about mine, yeah
I'll admit I don't wanna talk about them
I'd rather look at pictures of Violet
But mom, I just need to confide and
Say what's here up on my mind and
Tell you 'bout all of this shit that's been going on
Please, can you just give me five, yeah
Starting out, the girl I love is back here
And I think she gon' stay in my life, yeah
It's hard cause I love her so much but it's rough
At the moment I can't make her mine yet
And plus I'm in love with her mindset
It's crazy cause she's doing so much better than me
Like, how the hell did I find that, yeah
And Johnny's been downing these bottles again
And I don't think that I can stop him again
Cause every time he go out partying saying he's done
He find beer and it start up again
And mom, now I feel like a loser
This girl, I cannot ever lose her
And John find a bottle and choose her
And I don't know just what to do

But there's nothing else for me out there
I'll make it or I'm going down there
The clouds that hung over my head
It done ran out of rain and now we're put around there
I swear to god I cannot stop and I'll never be finished
Until this whole goddamn city diminished
Until I stand up and say that I made it
And tell my mom I have a reason for living
There's nothing else for me out there
I'll make it or I'm going down there
The clouds that hung over my head
It done ran out of rain and now we're put around there
I swear to god I cannot stop and I'll never be finished
Until this whole goddamn city diminished
Until I stand up and say that I made it
And tell my mom I have a reason for living
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah