Stay Alive

One more night, running low on highs
One more try, it will be alright
With all you're hiding from, tell me what you're scared to lose
One more fight, to stay alive

Help me, I'm spazzing, people went missing
My friends all went absent, fatal attraction, no love at all
They say I'm a has-been, okay, my mind, I'm out of mine
Crossing the line, I'm out of line

Drink too much wine, I start to whine
Saying I'm fine, that's hard to find
Nobody gets me, but they wanna fix me
Leave me alone, or they leave me

Life ain't been easy, maybe I'll end it
Screaming out YOLO but living my life like it is a no-go
Swerving in traffic, I'm drinking in SoHo
Gone off the rails, my motive is loco

Mood swings, and I do things that I regret, but they amuse me
On defense like two, three, they accuse me, I'm like, who me?
Xanax and some hootch neat, loose lips like a loose leaf
Doom creeps in my room deep, while you sleep, you might lose me

One more night, running low on highs
One more try, to be alright
With all you had in front, tell me we'll just get to lose
One more fight, just stay alive

I'm scared to choose, I'm scared of you, I'm scared of truth
Prepared a noose, prepared to lose, but I'm scared to move
I take this action, what really happens on the back end
But facing factions, these distractions
Sadly it's just all too taxing

I took the strap from way back, handful of pills, and laid back
None of these thoughts will stay back, hurting myself is just payback
These bullies around me, and they attack
Trying to hold on and replay it back

Josephine gone, Jackie is gone
Chase too, you can have that
Pour up the Tito's, I'm incognito
Veto the plan to pull the trigger
I hear my son, put up the gun
Before he come down, I put up the liquor
But late nights is on repeat
When they plot demise and they keke

I'm still holding on, pick up the phone
If you out of touch, come see me

One more night, running low on highs
One more try, to be alright
With all you had in front, you might just get to lose
One more fight, just stay alive

So hold on tonight, so keep holding tight
Just stay alive, just stay alive