Of Matter (P O R T A L S)

I am surrogate
I'm archetypal and itinerant
I'm your excuse to long
For a superior
I will undertake
I will overcome

Imperfection you will find
Look close enough, tear off the mask I need
This endeavour is not mine
You subject me to the daggers you conceive
I'm stronger than I was before
Thus you reinforce these walls, I can't fight you anymore
Threatened by the open doors
All the chances I ignore, I can't stand still anymore

Thе day is done, nothing left to say
Resting hеad in hands, wishing I had known my place
To take a stand, the errand of a fool
I'm not to reprimand, I'm here to help you through

Is nothing like it seems?
Living through this sequence, a dream
Is nothing like it seems?
Gather broken shards of self-esteem

Burning bridges as I cower beneath
Trying to salvage the debris
My devotion tied around your waist, lest you fall
No one seems to sense the strain, no one seems to know

Burning bridges as I cower beneath
Trying to salvage the debris
My devotion tied around your waist, lest you fall
No one seems to sense the strain, no one seems to know

I don't begin to proclaim that I know
I can't continue down this road
Dwelling on what has come to pass
No force alive will bring it back
I would know

I can feel the pressure getting steeper with every life lost
You hope that I won't see the light of day in time to come

With no conviction founded just
Judgement contorted based on lust
Give me strength

Your assumption brings to a conclusion of no consequence
And I refuse to play into your hands for your appeal

Inadequate
Inadequate
I know
I know
I know
I know
I've hoped
I've hoped
You'll see me

Turn back time
Reason why
Breakneck speed
History

Waiting (waiting)
Waning (waning)
Exasperating
Unstrung, tethered
Hoping forever

No
I tried to settle bets with my own soul
Bless my lips for the first time before you don't
Gripping to the last touch of your hand I grow to loathe
Hope that you remember just how far I'll go
Spend the rest of my life wishing I'm enough
Resist, resist, resist
Resist, resist, resist