Panicstricken

I chose death over life
I wanted to meet my maker
I was dying inside
Pain too great to deal with made me try to take my life
But now I've seen the light
I've got a second chance at life
I'm not retracing my old tracks
I'm never going back to the locked doors and the blinded life
To the uncertainty of whether the next will be a good or bad day
I never want to wonder what life would be like without me in it

'Cause I'm alive
I'm done wanting to die
I'm taking what I've learned with me, it's all I knew
And I'll be kicking my old skin out the front fucking door
'Cause I don't need it anymore

I'm taking steps forward one foot at a time
Making sure not to fall
It'll be the last trip of my life

Reaching up while the ship sinks to the bottom of this dead, old shit
A thousand stars, a thousand stars couldn'
T shine through everything we've been through
In this world that is humankind, I'

M never going back to the locked doors
I'm never going back to blinded lives
To blinded lives