Still Light

The doctor came in the morning
She held my hand
And asks, "Was it worth it?
Could it be worse than this?
Please recall
Give me a hint
Anything will do
If this was the last time now you should tell us what to do"

I was afraid I guess
Now I can't think no more
I was so concentrated
On keeping things together
I've learned to focus on
I didn't want to disappoint
Now, where is everybody
Is it still light outside?