Half Alive

Burn me on a bed of dead roses
I wanna feel it all
Rearrange the colors in my bruises
To something beautiful

Saltwater falls
Vines flourish from my chest
I'm too far gone
A victim of my neglect
And darkness is a flood
That permeates my head
It rains, and it rains, and it rains to no end

I'm half alive
Bleeding velvet petals and butterflies
It's suicide
Gleaming diamond eyes, I'm rotting from the inside

My world of greys
I painted with crimson to hide the misery
My hollow heart and skin of jade into earth disintegrate
Internalize the pain

I'm half alive
Bleeding velvet petals and butterflies
It's suicide
Gleaming diamond eyes, I'm rotting from the inside

These thoughts are not my own
In the void when I'm alone
These thoughts are not my own
Not my own
(I didn't ask for this)

Hyper-fixated on a jagged blade, no one will remember me
I'm losing my senses
Hyper-fixated on a jagged blade, no one will remember me
But I don't want to end this

I'm half alive
Bleeding velvet petals and butterflies
It's suicide
Gleaming diamond eyes, I'm rotting from the inside