Mind Mutiny

there's a shadow inside my head
drowns the moon when I go to bed
tells me I won't wake up alive
so I just don't sleep at night

instead I flex the hobby kit
build a world I see better fit
model trains model villages
pretend these nights were different

it's spinning through me like a swarm of bees
and sending my mind into mutiny

I see my villagers in their homes
sound asleep with their curtains closed
so I whisper into their ears
and force them awake with my fears

it's spinning through me like a swarm of bees
and sending my mind into mutiny
nobody is free from the tapestry
that they weave through their own minds

it's spinning through me like a swarm of bees
and sending my mind into mutiny
nobody is free from the tapestry they weave inside
so when I cover the loom that I weaponize
I feel the pull slip

there's a shadow inside my head
drowns the moon when I go to bed
tells me I won't wake up alive
strangles me when I close my eyes