My Testimony

I wish that I could be perfect
Deep inside I'm still hurting
Lord take away all my burdens
They be claiming that they love me but I know I ain't certain
I'm gonna to treat her like I'm posed to
No I ain't gonna do no flirting

Running around in the villes like I ain't had nowhere to go
I was sinking in that water Jesus came up with a boat
I was accepting I'm a failure Jesus came and gave me hope
Smell of death was in the air the devil tried to get me gone

I told them my problems they offered patron
Suicide was up in my dome
People around but I still felt alone
Tired of crying I'm just trying to feel home
Glock and 9's I had put to my dome
Press the fire I was too scared to go
Demons around they was up in my room
All these signs I can't even assume
Press the gas I had gone off and vroom
Popping pills every morning
Weren't no light everything was gloomy
Blowing smoke but it ain't help me
I couldn't even feel my face some days
Feel like I been living in a maze some days
Then he came in with amazing grace
Hard work gonna show I know the time gonna pay
Casting out demons I'm gone let it spray
Up in my heart I had nothing but pain
Up in my mind I had nothing but hate
Better mind your business you ain't know what you saying
Momma I had wanted you to fix some things
I'm sorry for what I did and I'm sorry for the pain
I just wanna make you proud out here someday
Lord you came and you had saved me
Aye aye just look how you had changed me
I move forwards I'm not even on the same things
Press the gas I can't even let it faze me
They call me weird cause I praise the Lord I don't get their hating
Having visions on occasions
They say that I had adhd know that that's just satin
I ain't scared of none of that stuff y'all scared of know that I'm just waiting
Say that y'all gonna do something pop it know that my Lord raised me
Got my scriptures they sitting in the back okay
Spit the Holy word like a mac okay
Cast them down get from around me okay
Psalms be my 100 round drum then spray
Imma go dumb bout my Lord don't play
Sticking out like a sore thumb okay
Lost at sea but he found me olay
Imma eat get in the spirit chipotle
Da da da we some spiritual shottas
Miss my earthly father
Wish he was around for me when I really needed it
Feel like he ain't never want me
I can't be conceited told me things beneath him only
Say that this my testimony know imma go and keep it real
Lost some of my brothers now
Wishing that they weren't killed
Gotta forgive them boys that did it
Been hurting I let time heal
I got on my knees to forgive them I'm tryna get up out of here
Hard to speak about it
Dreams where I left my body
I'm just nobody tryna tell y'all about somebody
Lord I say I'm sorry my sins it wasn't the target
Ain't been doing too much hardly i ain't the type to go to parties
And I'm praising you regardless of what he say and what she say
I take off like a rari can't stop for her she wanna lay
I put Holy things in my body I eat the word like Chic fil A
And I ain't in a rush for my shawty know she coming regardless
I wish that I could be perfect
Deep inside I'm still hurting
Lord take away all my burdens
They be claiming that they love me but I know I ain't  certain
I'm gonna to treat her like I'm posed to
No I ain't gonna do no flirting

Running around in the villes like I ain't had nowhere to go
I was sinking in that water Jesus came up with a boat
I was accepting I'm a failure Jesus came and gave me hope
Smell of death was in the air the devil tried to get me gone

But he can't get me gone
No I am not alone
My Lord keep me strong
This coming off the dome
I won't let it go
Imma let y'all know