Deliverance

I'm always falling and caught between what's wrong and what's right
Gave all I had to give and now I'm left with this life
You watched me die
I can't find my place when the lights become so dim
I'm not getting better
My sanity is growing thin
I lost all I had, I'd give anything for a second chance 
The burden of this guilt and all of its fucking weight
The only way to live this life, I choose my own fate
I can't find my place when the lights become so dim
I'm not getting better
My sanity is growing thin
I fell from God's grace when I found mercy
Delivered by the lead as I gave myself peace
I won't see heaven when I die
I fell too fast
This feeling will never pass
Put the sadness to rest
Will it follow me until death?