Mad At The World

I am not alright like I used to be
Drowning in the Hennessy it's cold as fuck
Dropping people close, do it casually
I never blame myself I am bold as fuck
Vision getting blurry I am tired, yeah, yeah
Ain't nobody worried I'm admired, yeah, yeah
My PTSD is confirmed
Now you understand why I'm mad at the world

I don't wanna change myself but I have to
Doing it all wrong so I guess I should be glad to move on
'Cause I don't care about my health
Really need some help, woah
Will it be forever? Give me answers, God
Smoking all the weed I need a transfer, yuh
I make a lot of dumb choices, why do you look up to me?
Drinking some potions to get rid of jealousy

I feel so alone
Dealing with the trauma in my own home
No one by side who can help me out
So now I'm filled with doubts

I am not alright like I used to be
Drowning in the Hennessy it's cold as fuck
Dropping people close, do it casually
I never blame myself I am bold as fuck
Vision getting blurry I am tired, yeah, yeah
Ain't nobody worried I'm admired, yeah, yeah
My PTSD is confirmed
Now you understand why I'm mad at the world

I see it clear just gotta put it into motion
What I fear is nothin' less than my emotions
The pressure rise like the bottom of the ocean (Ooh, yeah)
I know I am on my own
And I've been here for way too long
I still try but I'm so wrong
My mind's so gone that I don't know
I wanna drown with the feeling

Running away from myself I'm feening
Heart is so broken, might just stop beating
I wanna know where my life is leaning
I wanna know where my life is leading

I am not alright like I used to be
Drowning in the Hennessy it's cold as fuck
Dropping people close, do it casually
I never blame myself I am bold as fuck
Vision getting blurry I am tired, yeah, yeah
Ain't nobody worried I'm admired, yeah, yeah
My PTSD is confirmed
Now you understand why I'm mad at the world