Numb

I've been feeling so numb
While the guitar strums
While the drums beat inside my head
Inside my head
I need to feel the music
I need to feel the pain
I need to feel happy
I need to feel sane
I need to feel sane
Got the demons
Had the voices
Now I'm medicated
All the choices being made
Am I being played
Am I being played
I'm getting older not getting better
My body needs to take shelter from This pain
But I choose to be numb
Cuz there's no light up in here
I can only see the darkness and fear But I'm numb
I'm so numb
There's no light up in here
I can only see the darkness and fear I'm numb
I'm so numb
I'm in a numb state of mind
Going through this daily grind
Trying to find myself
Find myself
Going through each day
Not truly living
Wonder if today I'm dying
Wonder if tomorrow
I'll be here
I'll be here
The medication that I'm on
Makes me feel like king Kong
Getting smashed on this alcohol
This shit so strong (Yeah it is)
Got this mental beat down
Had a mental break down
I'm locked up
Mental prison
Don't have a vision
No vision
And I'm numb
Cuz there's no light up in here
I can only see the darkness and fear
But I'm numb
I'm so numb
There's no light up in here
I can only see the darkness and fear I'm numb
I'm so numb
There's still no light up in here
There’s still no light up in here
And I'm numb
I'm still numb
There's no light up in here
There’s no light up in here
And I'm numb
Oh I'm so numb