Mesmerised

I've fallen back into the sickness
Regress, repress all symptoms
Black my lungs to die young
A bitter sharp tongue
Biting back against everything I chose to repress

We live just to die as the blind leads the blind
Cause when it comes to an end
We all have regrets
But I've learned to let go

Pretend, pretend like the pain will all now come to an end
Been swallowed whole and left a sorrowed soul

Cause I've been waiting my whole life
To make myself believe the very words I preach

So spare the delusion
I'm not your saviour
I'll let it all fade away
Don't paint me a martyr
I'm not your anchor
These opaque eyes left mesmerised

I'm slipping back into hypnosis
Tried concealing the sickness with poisons
With no one left to blame
From this I can't abstain
An apathetic, pathetic excuse for rotting away

We live just to die
When the pain will subside
Cause when it comes to an end, we all pay our debts
So it's time to let go

Descend, descend
Down into the darkness, impulsive self hatred
Carve out my beating heart till I depart

Cause I keep tearing myself down to live this fallacy
Regress, repress
Regress, repress
Been swallowed whole and left a sorrowed soul

I'll let it all fade away

So spare the delusion
I'm not your saviour
I'll let it all fade away
Don't paint me a martyr
I'm not your anchor
These opaque eyes left mesmerised

Regress, repress
Regress, repress
Been swallowed whole and left a sorrowed soul
Regress, repress
I'm not worth saving
These opaque eyes left mesmerised

I've been searching for the strength to mend the hole in my heart
And I'll keep fighting the urge to suffer misery for art

Cause I've been searching for the strength to mend the hole in my heart
And I'll keep fighting the urge to suffer misery
All for art