Here I Go

Well here I go again
Gonna get in my own way
Maybe I enjoy it
Does that make me insane
Wish that I could be the version of me in my dreams
Feels right when I'm wrong
It's just how I've been all along
If I knew what was broken
I don't know what would change
The same old suffering
Don't hold me down these days
So take me if you can
Leave me if you can't understand
I will come to the light
Just let me have my time in the night
Sometimes when I close my eyes
I see myself living in a better frame of mind
Me and I tell myself it'll all be fine
But they might be lying
Pour another cup of coffee
Let the racing thoughts begin
Am I growing or failing
Which narrative will win
All I know now
My heart's trying to pound its way out
Maybe I should breathe
It doesn't really sound like me
Sometimes when I close my eyes
I see myself living in a better frame of mind
Me and I tell myself it'll all be fine
But they might be lying
Sometimes when I close my eyes
I see myself living in a better frame of mind
Me and I tell myself it'll all be fine
But they might be lying
Yeah, they might be lying
Oh, here I go again