Pressure

There's a car out by the meadow
It's all rusted and decayed
I've been wandering out there to get away when I start to overthink
About the path I'm meant to follow
And all that's standing in my way
I'm afraid if I abandon hope
My fate might be the same
The pressure is building
Time is running out
I've been counting seconds
Can't make up my mind
I'm always second guessing
If I fail
Can I pull my life together?
No way I can know
So I keep deflecting
Any thought I have
But they just keep coming back
When you're young they say you're special
And you can follow all your dreams
But when you're older they will say
Wake up and face reality
Now all you've got's a broken smile
From all the years you cut your teeth
And you were missing out on life
Waiting for what you won't achieve
The pressure is building
Time is running out
I've been counting seconds
Can't make up my mind
I'm always second guessing
If I fail
Can I pull my life together?
No way I can know
So I keep deflecting any thought I have
But they just keep coming back
And it's easy to say that I'm not giving up
And it's easy to say that I'm not giving up
But it's harder to face that it's never enough
But it's harder to face that I'm still fucking putting in effort
When will it ever pay off?
It feels like it's never enough
All of this effort
When will it ever pay off?
The pressure is building
Time is running out
I've been counting seconds
Can't make up my mind
I'm always second guessing
If I fail
Can I pull my life together?
No way I can know
So I keep deflecting any thought I have
But they just keep coming back