Going Crazy

I know life a long road
And one day I'll pay the death toll
I just hope before then
I make it through the threshold
And stack enough paper
So my babies get fresh clothes
The first day of school
Cuz growing up we didn't get those
Me and Slim was sipping syrup
Like we had strep throat
Did a lot of drugs
Before we even knew the threat posed
Member hearing brody OD'd
Off the exos
Cut with something extra
But his plug never said so
Damn
As I'm growing older,
It's become clear
Life gon be unfair
But everyone gets some share
Of pain with it
Still talking about the struggle
Cuz I still remain in it
Wonder why I'm
Coming round trippin
Need a plane ticket
Seen shit switch so fast
I know most of my closest
Friendships won't last
Done killed so many rappers
I could print toe tags
But this just something to relate to
When shit goes bad
Used to want the baddest bitches
With the big ol ass
Til I took a wild ride with one
And just bout crashed
Know you thought I'd be the nigga
To extend your laugh
But every chick I ever gave shit
Went more mad
When this drop
They gon be like
Bro you in your bag
But I ain't never left it
Spent a whole year inside my own head
Second guessing
Trynna make the best impression
Now I feel effervescent
Never will my effort lessen
This year I'm record setting
This year I'm resurrecting
My career from the place
Where everybody said I left it
Had to take some time off the net
It had my head infested
Always been the type that felt better
When I'm less connected
This year I won't be lazy
You ain't gotta motivate me
Wishing I could always
Have the confidence I'm showing lately
I don't care what niggas think
Cuz I already overrate me
Gotta be delusional to make it
And I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I been going crazy
Gotta be delusional to make it and I'm
Going crazy
Lately life been giving me the least
Like a landlord
Used to only dream about succeeding
Now I plan for it
It ain't just for me
I really need it for my fam more
My brother still up in construction
Working til his hands sore
So I ain't finna go flex
Show up wearing a Rolex
Til I know I got enough bread
To get us both blessed
Let him walk in the store
And pick it like a protest
When I said I got you
Bro I did it with my whole chest
Shorty told me first time we link
We having no sex
After one glass of Moet
Said she more wet
Then she ever been before
I told her don't forget
I would never do you wrong
When you don't know best
All I know is protect
All I know is provide
Professing my emotions
Over beats until my soul cries
Ever since bro died
Been switching up my whole vibe
Searching for assistance
Like I'm roadside
Always getting lifted
Cuz when I'm sober I nosedive
Into the ground
Just need a plug that could
Front me unlimited pounds
Won't be no errors
In the era I'm entering now
Cuz when you at your pinnacle
Ain't no pinning you down
This year I won't be lazy
You ain't gotta motivate me
Wishing I could always
Have the confidence I'm showing lately
Don't care what niggas think
Cuz I already overrate me
Gotta be delusional to make it
And I'm going crazy