Just Enough To Bleed

I'm good at hiding in a crowded room Smiling like it's just a passing mood
I laugh it off before it shows
But there's a crack in every joke
I leave the lights on when I sleep
Like maybe I won't feel so weak
But shadows know where I've been
And wait for me to let them in
I wear this face like borrowed skin
It never fits but it keeps me in
I'm always one breath from breaking down One step from screaming out
But I never do, I never do
I bruise quiet, cut deep
But just enough to bleed
I don't need help, just an off switch
A way to feel without all of this
I'm tired of holding my own weight
Of being strong until I break
No one sees what I don't say
No one stays when I'm not okay
And I can't blame them I would leave
If I knew the truth that lives in me
I talk in code and hope you hear
But I've made silence feel like fear
I'm always one breath from breaking down One step from screaming out
But I never do, I never do
I bruise quiet, cut deep
But just enough to bleed
I don't wanna die but I don't wanna feel
I don't wanna fight but I never heal
If I told the truth would you still believe
I'm worth the noise underneath this grief
I'm always one breath from breaking down One heartbeat from fading out
But I never do, I bruise quiet, cut deep
But just enough to bleed