Never Stay

I say I'll show up
Then I vanish by the second call
I feel the love
But never let it land at all
You said you'd take the mess
But I don't clean, I just pretend
I always leave things halfway
Swear I'll fix it in the end
I'm always chasing silence
When I need to be held
I burn every bridge just
To prove I built it myself
I never stay Even when I want to
I'll find a way To lose what I hold on to
You see gold, I see rust
You say us, I say just
I'll never stay
Even when I need to
There's a note I wrote
Still sitting in my phone
Said I'd send it last December
But I couldn't make it known
Every finish line feels like a dare I never take
Every time I get too close I find a brand new way to break
I keep meaning to change
But the version of me that you need
Feels like someone I'll never be
I never stay Even when I want to
I'll find a way To lose what I hold on to
You see gold, I see rust You say us, I say just
I'll never stay Even when I need to
I keep meaning to change
But the version of me that you need
Feels like someone I'll never be
I never stay Even when I want to
I'll find a way To lose what I hold on to
You see gold, I see rust
You say us, I say just
I never stay
Even when I need to