Still Sour

I keep listening to sad songs
Cause I think I like this feeling
This constant drama keeps me reeling
But I don't know any better
Sick of listening to the voices in my head
Sick of them repeating what you said
Sick of all of this taking so long
I just wanna write another song
I wish I could turn this frust into power
But I just keep feeling sour
Wish I could transform this fear into courage
But I'm still my own mind's hostage
I'm addicted to the pain
And right now I wanna give you some
I've forgotten why since I started feeling numb
My vision's kinda blurry
My twitching eye has become permanent
Can't remember when it first started
I've come closer to acceptance and
I might even be on the mend
Wish I could turn this frust into power
But I just keep feeling sour
Wish I could transform this fear into courage
But I'm still my own mind's hostage
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh
I may look young
But how do I stop pulling out my gray hair now?
I may seem fine
but I started counting scars a while ago
And there may be more than I know
I finally wanna throw my keepsakes away
Cause I looked at them in the light of day
I wish I could turn this frust into power
But I just keep feeling sour
Wish I could transform this fear into courage
But I'm still my own mind's hostage
Wish I could turn this frust into power
But I just keep feeling sour
Wish I could transform this fear into courage
But I'm still my own mind's hostage
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh