Knock Knock

I'm still too scared to put my foot down
When she gets angry I apologise
If I'm not perfect then I'll lose her
I don't wanna go back to my other life, tell myself it's fine

Suck in my stomach when I hug you
As long as I'm awake I never can relax
I watch our bodies from a distance
Trapped behind a wall of insecurities
I'm peaking through the glass

Three months time has arrived
I'm sick of this lie
So I tell her how I feel
And that her love doesn't feel real
Now I can't sleep tonight
I'm scared of her reply
See her typing for an hour
And my doubts are growing louder
Finally she responds
Split in three, it was too long
Take a glance at the last sentence
Now my stomach's in my throat
And try my best to ignore
But I know what I saw
Hanging on to every word
As it gets worse and starts to hurt
She doesn't think she's enough
Doesn't know how to love
Says that maybe I should leave her
'Cause she's only getting weaker
But I try to hold on
Tell her she's all I want
Say some platitudes, convince her she's enough
It doesn't work

I know I shouldn't think about it
Keeps coming back to me, I let out little cries
Don't wanna live when I'm without her
Go to my buddies house and crash there for the night
I wake up and my phone is ringing
She called and messaged me she's standing at my door
But I can't answer 'cause my phone is shit, and I'm not home
I leave so I can see her cause she bought me lots of flowers
And she wrote a pretty poem but when I got there she was gone

(knock knock)