14

There are no future years
It's just one replayed
2017 on loop
Forever breaking my brain
I still get glimpses of you
Screaming out my name
You're searching for answers
But I don't have anything

Love me, worship me
Treat me like I'm godly
Put me on a pedestal
Even though I'm 14
Hate me, degrade me
I'm worse than dirt I'm nothing
This 14 year old idiot
Reduced to a dichotomy

There are no future years
It's just one replayed
2017 on loop
Forever breaking my brain
I still get glimpses of you
Screaming out my name
You're searching for answers
But I don't have anything

Love me, worship me
Treat me like I'm godly
Put me on a pedestal
Even though I'm 14
Hate me, degrade me
I'm worse than dirt I'm nothing
This 14 year old idiot
Reduced to a dichotomy

Recently I've been like
Feeling like I have imposter syndrome
Which is like, you feel like you dont deserve
Any of the attention that you have
So you kinda just like, desociate with your, uh

I mean dissociate with your popular self
And make you feel like its not you
I'm- I'm only 14 years old
I feel I'm going to improve way more in the future years
And right now I'm living the dream that I've always wanted to live

You're in your future years
It's time to be amazed
Enter your trophy room
Years of dedication on display
And through the shiny awards
You can see your face
But you don't see yourself
So why'd it even matter anyway

I've been replaced
By me on screen
She's echoing
Who I used to be
I'm overshadowed by my own achievements
It's demeaning
I'll climb out of all of these trophies as they suffocate me, yeah

Yay, i feel happy
I feel happy in life right now
It's just really good ok
Ok bye!