Counting

(1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)
I've got the invite in my back pocket
Wore something tight and I'm feigning confidence
Squeezing my guts but I'll try not to mind it
Tonight (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

Friendly faces, I just see stomachs
Find the tables, I start to plummet
Starting to wish that I didn't come here
Tonight

But it's your night
Ahhhh
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

'Cos all of the dainty girls
Eat their birthday cake like they're breathin' air
So I'll just keep count of what goes in and out
Of my stupid mouth and I'll stare
At the clock
Sucking in
I don't need to breathe
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

I will count
Down the hours
Until I can leave
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

They're all laughing, enjoying the flavours
I'm wishin' we were made of paper
I'd cut us into pieces and trade them
With mine

I understand I sound juvenile
All my friends are grown-ups, I'm a child
Putting us all in beauty pageants
In my brain

And I'm in last place

Ahhhh
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

'Cos all of the dainty girls
Eat their birthday cake like they're breathing air
So I'll just keep count of what goes in and out
Of my stupid mouth and I'll stare
At the clock
Sucking in
I don't need to breathe
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

I will count
Down the hours
Until I can leave
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

And I wanna say
Happy birthday
But I just need to go home
(1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5)

They've turned off the lights
The candles ignite
They won't even notice I've gone

I know I don't deserve any birthday cake after how I behaved
And I would have stuck around
But there were so many dainty girls in one place

I'm sorry I spent your night
Sucking in
With a beauty pageant in my head
I know I'm
Not much fun
When I'm counting under my breath