Reflective State

I lost my ways,
I lost my hope,
Trapped in chokeholds 

Dwelling on the past

Struggling to feel content 

Hidden behind veils so ever frail,
I Keep it down, 
I Don't make a sound 

Behind it I sit and wait,
coming to terms 
with misfortune and mistakes

Frail eyes, 
Crooked smile, 
Razor wire between teeth 
I lie to myself to feel at ease 

Nothing seems real to me,
Delusions I wish I couldn't see 

Chained down

Nothing seems real to me,
Eyes bares down on me

Release me 

Uncover the future and you will see 
that there is nothing left for me

Behind it I sit and wait,
coming to terms 
with misfortune and mistakes

Frail eyes, 
Crooked smile, 
Razor wire between teeth 
I lie to myself to feel at ease 

My dreams worn on my sleeve,
Stripped back and slashed 
For everyone to see 

Waking up knowing what I should be,
I just can't bare to live up to that 

When people constantly shit on me

Moving closer to the dying sun
Will I ever find my sound again

Degraded so insignificant

I'm worn down and nothing comes so easy,
Battered and bruised so you can feel complete

This feeling never goes away 
Taking ten steps back day by day

My veil so ever tarnished, 
Heavily uninviting 

I'm frightened 
I'm scared 

Panic sets in