Holdin On

Now I can't stop holdin' on
And I won't stop loving you
Now I can't do what you've done
So forever lying
So far if I'm on my own
Hope I find my baby
All the pain you left in me
It's all the pain, oh, oh

Yeah, you call my phone, and we talk, you said you wish it was different
You said you know what you did, but you wish you wouldn't have done it
Said when you said that you loved me, you swore to God that you meant it
And ever since we separated with everyone else, I've been distant

I should've listened, losing you never sits right with me
I really want you to fight for me
Instead, I was fighting for you to love me, while fighting these demons inside of me
Told me you loved me and told me you cared and told me you're sorry (damn)

I know that I'm over you, hearing your name is racing my heart for me
You took a part of me, part of me is filled with regret
(Now I can't stop holdin' on)
A part of me just can't accept, that you'd really do me like that

(And I won't stop loving you) I know I forgave you, but I can't forget
I can't forget everything, I can't pretend it didn't happen
(Now, I can't do what you've done)
The thought of you leaving helpless is something I hate to imagine

(So forever lying) I really put all my love in you (so far if I'm on my own)
I really put all my trust in you
Whenever I felt I was lonely, or needed someone, you was the one I was running to
(Hope I find my baby)

Really I'm used to this hurt, 'cause everyone leaves in the end
(All the pain you left in me)
That's why I just push them away, or run 'em away, I don't give 'em the chance
(It's all the pain, oh, oh)

I guess I'm better alone 'cause all of my loved ones desert me
I'm scared of meeting new people, I'm just so scared that they'll hurt me
'Cause I was crying for help, damn, and nobody heard me
Staying away from the world, I'm praying nobody disturbs me, please don't disturb me

(Yeah) but how are you lying to people, you're telling my family I beat you
This is why I don't be trying with people
'Cause you can't accept what you've done so to cover it up you sit there and lie
You know I've never been happy and now that I'm trying, you tryna ruin my life

I see you happy, you're tryna move on, I've just been letting you do you
But now that it's me, and I'm tryna do it, you just won't let me 'cause it don't include you
You never wanted me have you, you only care about yourself
You hate the fact that I'm happy, and it's 'cause of somebody else

Now I can't stop holdin' on
And I won't stop loving you
Now I can't do what you've done
So forever lying
So far if I'm on my own
Hope I find my baby
All the pain you left in me
It's all the pain, oh, oh