Demons

My mind is so dark
I feel all hope is fading
These mistakes haunt me
I can't escape my demons

I do something right then falling back to old habits
The inner voice up in my head he said I don't got it
A tug of war that I've been facing you just can't fathom
I walked the depths of hell the devil comes in all fashion
The hardest part about depression tryna hide the pain
Put on a fake persona I won't bother to explain
I grew accustomed to the fact that people never stay
I tried to love but my heart treated like a f**king game
Anxiety is through the roof its panic 101
My demons talk to me when everybody else was gone
Drown myself in liquor but I know I can't keep running
Would rather shift the blame than take account for my own problems

My mind is so dark
I feel all hope is fading
These mistakes haunt me
I can't escape my demons

My personality is bi polar right to the core
I wake up some days wonder what I'm really chasing for
Just to grab a little glamour and a taste of fame
Then to realize its not what you're wanting anyway
Lord I'm a sinner I'm just hoping I can be forgiven
I curse in music so stop asking me if I'm a Christian
Success was never in my hands I had to go and get it
Have people praise you and then cut you deep as an incision
The monsters don't live underneath my bed they're in my head
And feed off negativity I'm hanging by a thread
Im not okay Im not okay sound like a broken record
Hoping someone might just check me like I'm playing checkers

My mind is so dark
I feel all hope is fading
These mistakes haunt me
I can't escape my demons