Fig Tree

Another day gone underneath my fig tree
Grey as everyone's dreams
As thin as the leaves around me
As I'm left to see my fruit dropping dead
On the ground by my feet
Almost nothing left to eat
Holding onto belief

Another life must be somewhere up in the leaves
The best path must be the one I can't see
If I'm left to be, I'll stay here just watching everything
I could be
Die in front of me and I don't want to see, no
No

Gold like Versace
I love it when he slaps me
If I fall, catch me
But they never catch me
That's me in the backseat looking nasty
Looking plastic when they pass me

You know I like you
Drive to the drive through
Drink with the ice cubes
Said you think that I'm cute
And then when it's time to
I'll leave you where I find you
It's hard to decline you when I'm too high to

And it's okay if you can't reply to me
I'm too weak, I'm too shy to speak
Say I'm fine but I cried for weeks
Say you like me
What's on your mind but me?
There's a big hole right inside of me
But I feel whole each time you write to me
I'm scared but scared feels right to me
Why do I want him when he's not right for me?

I try to live as if I want to live
I try to block it out it still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing

I try to live as if I want to live
I try to block it out it still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing

Don't die now
You need to leave the house
Don't fall asleep now
The sun is almost out
So when is it my turn?
It's not safe to thrive
It's too late to hide
And I'm, I'm yet to see the worst
So tell me when is my turn, oh

Tell me
Tell me you love me

Sometimes when I talk to my friends
I feel more alone and that doesn't sense
Sometimes I'd be lying if I said
That I don't think I'd be better off dead
If I died, would I make a headline?
If I died, would anybody be surprised?
If I died, would they love me online?
Who'd I be remembered by?
Who'd forget me in time?

Side eyes
Toss my hair to the side
I'm fine
Everybody's going to die
That's fine
I'm with you in another life
That's nice
We met before we died

Side eyes
Toss my hair to the side
I'm fine
Everybody's going to die
That's fine
I'm with you in another life
That's nice
We met before we-

I try to live as if I want to live
I try to block it out it still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing

I try to live as if I want to live
I try to block it out it still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing

Tell me you love me
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