Finding Ground

I woke up in the silence I created on my own
Tried to scream but every echo felt like stone
I ran from the mirror 'cause I hated what I’d see
Buried every thought 'til it started burying me
I gave in to the pressure, let it eat me alive
Told myself it’s better just to run and survive
But every step I take just circles back around
Every lie I told is still screaming out loud
I thought I could erase it
But it's branded in my skin
Tried to numb it out
But it always pulls me in
I'm falling, falling
But no one's catching me
I'm crawling, crawling
Back through the debris
You hear me now
But you never believed
I'm not who I was
But I'm still not free
Still not free...
I played the role, wore the mask, knew the lines
Nodded to the crowd while breaking inside
They cheered so loud, they never saw the scars
Never knew the truth behind the avatar
I was made of walls, built from all my shame
Tried to light the fuse but put out the flame
Now I’m standing still in a world that spins
Every loss I faced screaming under my skin
I thought silence was the answer
But it only made it worse
I tried to heal with anger
Now I'm drowning in the curse
I'm falling, falling
But no one's catching me
I'm crawling, crawling
Back through the debris
You hear me now
But you never believed
I'm not who I was
But I'm still not free
Still not free...
Every memory I hide keeps haunting me
I’m screaming but you're not hearing me
I gave all I had just to stay alive
But I'm barely surviving inside!
I'm falling, falling
But no one's catching me
I'm crawling, crawling
Back through the debris
You hear me now
But you never believed
I'm not who I was
But I’ll never be free
Never be… free…