Hard On Myself

Hmm, mm-mm
Hmm, mm-mm

I ain't proud of the things I've done
But I sure as hell remember every one
You don't gotta point your finger or raise your voice
Trust me, I already made that choice

I beat myself up better than you could
Dig through memories I never should
Sleep don't visit when regret's around
And I replay shit 'til I break down

I'm hard on myself, worse than they know
I carry guilt like it's carved in bone
Every wrong turn, every bridge I lift
I replay like it's some greatest hit

I don't need help to hate my past
I do that all on my own and fast
You don't have to send me to hell
I'm hard on myself

I see that look like I don't give a damn
But this smile's just my sleight of hand
I laugh to hide what I can't fix
I've mastered pain behind cheap tricks

I've let down folks I'd die for twice
And I've made peace with paying that price
But every sorry I ever said
Echoes back like a shot in my head

I'm hard on myself, way too long
Been dragging that shame like a ten-ton song
I don't need reminders or a jury's night
I've already played judge and I've played guide

I sentence myself with every breath
I don't forgive, I just accept
I'm not tryin' to be someone else
I'm just hard on myself

You ever look in the mirror?
And wish you could apologize to the reflection?
Yeah

I'm hard on myself every damn day
I wear my shame like it won't wash away
There ain't a voice meaner than my own
Ain't a man lonelier than one alone

But I still get up, still try like hell
Even if I never treat myself well
This pain ain't from someone else
I'm just hard on myself
I'm just hard on myself