Strong Don'T Mean Unbreakable

They say I'm the strong one, but they don't see the nights I break
The screams I swallow down, the hurt I fake
They see the grin, not the grit, never asked how deep I sit, in the quiet beggin' for a break
Strong don't mean unbreakable, don't mean I ain't on the edge

I hold the fuckin' roof up while I'm drownin' in my head
I'm the shoulder, I'm the spine, the fuck I bend sometimes
Strong don't mean I'm bulletproof, it just means I bleed in silence too
I don't cry where folks can hear it, don't unload what's in my chest

I make jokes and keep the peace, while my soul don't get no rest
I give a damn for everybody, but when I need help, it's just me, god damn it
Strong don't mean I'm okay, don't mean I'm made of steel
I fake a smile so they feel safe, even when I barely feel

I carry weight they'll never see, but that don't mean it's light to me
Strong don't mean I chose this role, it just means no one else should
I've been the fix that blew the light, but no one asked if I'm alright
Strong don't mean unbreakable, don't mean I ain't been cracked

I hold the fuckin' line with no one watchin' my back
I've been the savior up in the damn wall, but sometimes I wanna fall
Strong don't mean I'm fearless, it just means I ain't allowed to feel it
So I keep going, while no one sees I'm broken