Breaking Point

I've been carryin' this weight for way too long
Pretendin' that I'm fine, but everything feels wrong!

Look, look, I wake up every mornin' with a knot inside my chest
Tryin' to convince myself that I don't need to decompress
But the mirror shows a stranger, and I barely recognize
All the pain behind the person that I'm tryin' to disguise

They keep askin' how I'm doin', but they don't really wanna know
'Cause the truth is kinda heavy, and most people let it go
I been buildin' up these walls just to keep myself protected
But I'm startin' to realize that I'm feelin' disconnected

I'm at my breakin' point
Can't keep holdin' on
Everything I thought I knew is slowly comin' undone

I'm tired of pretendin' that I got it all together
I'm tired of actin' like this pain don't last forever
I need somebody to tell me it's okay to fall apart
'Cause I been hidin' who I am behind this broken heart

Listen, I been runnin' from the thoughts inside my head
Every conversation that I wish I could've said
All the chances that I missed because I stayed inside my room
All the bridges that I burned because I left a little soon, why?

I don't know what's wrong with me, I push away the good
I sabotage the happiness like nobody else could
I'm an expert at destroyin' what I'm supposed to hold tight
Then I wonder why I'm always in this never-endin' fight

Maybe I'm not broken, maybe I'm just bent
Maybe all this struggle's just the way that life was meant
Maybe there's a reason for the scars upon my soul
Maybe breakin' down's the only way to make me whole

So I'm standin' at the crossroads, and I got to make a choice
Do I listen to my demons? Or do I trust my inner voice?
All the people in my corner keep on tellin' me to fight
But it's hard to see the exit when you're standin' in the night (I can't)
But I'm tired of bein' tired, and I'm done with givin' up
Maybe it's time to empty out this overwhelmin' cup
I don't need to have the answers, I just need to take a step
'Cause the only way I'm movin' is if I can find my breath

I'm tired of pretendin' that I got it all together
I'm tired of actin' like this pain don't last forever
I need somebody to tell me it's okay to fall apart
'Cause I been hidin' who I am behind this broken heart
I've been carryin' this weight for way too long

Maybe it's time to write a different kind of song