For Leaving

If I win this fight
I'm gonna lose you
So we lay down
How we used to
But I've been angry
I've been so tired
And I've given you every reason to hate me
And baby that takes up so much of my mind
Oh
Lay with me
You've got a lot of nerve
And yeah I said some things
But you drew blood first
All my enemies
All have held a mirror to me
And I'm sorry
I thought I was ready to be seen
Baby forgive me for leaving
Baby you knew how I was
I can feel something in the ceiling
Something that I can't fight off
You were like an angel all emaciated
Dressed singin to me out on the fire escape
Baby I was never wanting it
I was only ever proving to me that I could do it
And I did it until I couldn't
And I knew it
But I wanted to be wrong so bad
It was always money and time racing at me
I was out there tryna make my life
And you said I was clipping your wings
Oh then we went to bed baby
Never mentioned it again baby
But oh, I remember it
Hell if nothin' else, I remember this
Oh
Baby forgive me for leaving
Baby you knew (how I was)
I can feel something in the ceiling
Something that I can't outrun
Don't come 'round here anymore
I'm gonna do it again
I wanted to be better so bad
I just don't think I'm that man