Cost Of Smiling

No, I’m not angry with you, Life
Just a little lost, a little confused.
Your innocent questions linger within,
And I don't know what to say to you.

Each time I try to smile again,
It feels like I owe the world a reason.
Even joy comes wearing chains
A smile feels borrowed… not mine.

No, I’m not angry with you, Life
Just quietly stunned, quietly shaken.
Your silence leaves a thousand thoughts,
And I sit with questions, still unspoken.

I never thought that to truly live,
I'd have to carry this weight of pain.
I never planned for smiles to cost
A debt repaid with aching grace.

No, I’m not angry with you, Life
Just quietly stunned, quietly shaken.
Your silence leaves a thousand thoughts,
And I sit with questions, still unspoken.

If my eyes fill up tonight,
Let the skies weep in my place.
For who knows if tears will find
Another moment, another face?

Don’t ask me where that one tear went
I hid it once, but now it’s gone.
Maybe it drowned in dreams unmet,
Or slipped away with the morning sun.

No, I’m not angry with you, Life
Just quietly stunned, quietly shaken.
Your silence leaves a thousand thoughts,
And I sit with questions, still unspoken.