Never Say Ever

Hmm-mm... never say ever...

They said, “We love you,” then asked me to change,
Folded me neat, rearranged.
Told me to smile while tearing me thin,
Their “love” only worked if I fit in.
And I kept giving — piece by piece,
Till nothing good was left in me.

I’m not a shape you draw and fill,
Not a silence you bend to will.

Never say ever — when your heart's not in it.
I’m done with the lies dressed up as commitment.
I held out my hands, they tied me instead…
Still breathing, but better off dead.
If they ever see what I really was worth —
Let it happen while I’m still on this earth.
But I know better than to hope forever.
So never say… ever.

I’ve walked through crowds like I was air,
Watched “friends” pretend I wasn’t there.
Built a prison out of their praise,
Taught me how to self-erase.
But I’m not their canvas, I’m not their clay—
I was someone before they turned away.

Hmm-mm… hmm-mm…
You wanted silence?
You got it.
You wanted pretty?
I fought it.
You wanted perfect?
I tried...
But I never got to be me on your side.

Never say ever — if you’re just pretending.
Don’t preach love when it’s so condescending.
I begged to be seen, they just looked through…
Like I was only real when I broke in two.
And if they ever care, if they ever believe—
I hope I’m alive the day they grieve.
But I’m not holding my breath forever.
So never say… ever.

They dressed me in silence, told me it fits,
But I was a fire… they buried in bricks.

If they ever look back and truly see—
Let them find more than a memory of me.

Never say…
Ever.